Every day I have thoughts of killing someone, it doesn’t matter who, I just want to see them die by my hand. I have been planning my first kill and it feels like I dont want to be able to hold it back. I have been a good person my whole life, well pretended to be at least. But I never feel for anyone, I say I have friends but I could watch them die and not shed a tear. My family could fall sick and I could put it out of my mind without a worry. I don’t connect to anyone, the only time I feel anything is when I am thinking of my killing and seeing someone die in my arms again. I have seen that before, I find myself wanting to see that again, and again, and again. I am not sure what is happening anymore
